Author Archives: ifbychanceyouunderstand

u took my breath away, and so did the view. drawn to both by some mystical trance i could not resist. only one remained constant. only one offered peace at the end of the day. only one allowed me to … Continue reading →

it was never good enough, but the best i could do. not perfect, intended only for one purpose. for you. a kernel of ok would have meant so much. just enough to keep me going when i felt so tired … Continue reading →

everyday every single day i think about you. a flashback of us that leads to more snapshots and then memories and then feelings i want to let go of so that everyday, every single day is not a reminder of … Continue reading →

the last box has now been opened. all of me i brought, to you. i don’t want to know what you were thinking when you packed me away, the love gifts returned. i ached to find us somewhere in there, … Continue reading →

so, here’s the deal. it doesn’t happen overnight. in fact, it may not happen for a very long time, but it will happen.  sometime. that has to be good enough for right now. just get up, put one foot on … Continue reading →

i’ve got a case of the wiggles the giggles, and wonder of life. i feel silly and foolish, and incredibly alive. no fever or rash, 100% sure i won’t call the doctor for this is the cure.  

woo me if you will, but you should know i am walled off from love gone wrong. unable to return to the middle. that space where i am i and you are you wide open with love for each other. … Continue reading →

i looked outside of my bubble and saw someone other than the you i know. frightened, weak and struggling to breathe i touched your shoulder and said it would be ok. forgetting the memories, without the anger. i was able … Continue reading →

here it comes. i allow it to be. tears steam down my cheeks, and my heart explodes. i feel confused. i feel angry and betrayed. i feel so sad. distraction may push it aside, but will not take it away. … Continue reading →