Author Archives: ifbychanceyouunderstand

so what r we? what is this thing we r doing? i asked, but it wasn’t until i said you and i are at a different place that you agreed. i said i will not be your fill in, your … Continue reading →

beware. the yellow door is before you. the person that lives here has been betrayed. if opened, enter with caution. love has been misrepresented, and mind bending attempted. so i peek through the broken stained glass to see who is … Continue reading →

i am walled off. no letting in, keeping all at a distance. an illusion of safety. no one comes around because they know this. they know i am not available. some days i want to let the wall down, but … Continue reading →

if i could just know what was going on in your life, maybe i could move on? but finding out is too risky because it would put me closer to u than i have been in a long time. afraid … Continue reading →

i want a new spot to rest my soul.  a place you have never been. the princess and the pea. restless.  tossing.  flipping and flopping. strange dreams. sometimes i come.  sometimes i wake myself crying out for you. i have … Continue reading →

poetry – language chosen and arranged to create a specific emotional response through meaning, sound, and rhythm. inspiration – the action or power of moving the intellect or emotions. poem – the whisper of poetic surrender. ifbychanceyouunderstand – the consequence … Continue reading →

i decided on a whim i did not want to be your insatiable red head anymore. after tears, and wine, and more wine i said “fuck you”. now i am a platinum blonde.  hah! someone else will call me their … Continue reading →

i am mourning the loss of u. my days are filled with grief. night falls fast. when will this end?  when will i wake up to sunshine? when will it be morning again?

i had never been there before, both figuratively and literally. i struggle to let go. going to this place, giving myself to u fully and authentically leaves me at a dead end. now where else to go. no one else … Continue reading →

u took me to that place, your special place at the waters edge and i knew then we were to be. i pressed my body against u and whispered my epiphany in your ear. we became an entangled mesh of … Continue reading →