i knew there was some deep darkenss, but you would never let me in.

you never told me, but i knew.

it makes sense now.

i want to let go of not being able to soothe you.

my love was not enough for your rage.

it would never have been enough.

i want to come out of hiding.

my retreat has no purpose now.

i have been there too long.

i want to begin again.

no more self-doubt.

in this new place i want to be me and be loved.

please help me.

it all makes sense now.