how’s this for ego?

i don’t want you to feel the way i do now.

egotists always assume you’ll feel the same way they do – ha!

i don’t want you to hurt so deeply it feels as if your chest is coming apart.

i don’t want you to weep so loudly that it becomes a howl.

i don’t want you to hate yourself so much for not doing some minor thing that all you can do is rage.

i don’t want you to remember how annoyed you were when i couldn’t put on my own socks and you had to help me.

i don’t want you to remember how frustrated you were when i repeatedly said i was    lonely – it’s wasn’t always about needing  something from you.  i just wanted to say how i was feeling.

i don’t want you to feel like you need to spend time with me on sundays.  and if you do, please don’t.  a crossword puzzle is a better plan that sitting around with someone who wants to be somewhere else.

i really don’t want you to remember all the things you could have or should have done, because i probably forgot what i asked you to do anyway.

and, besides even if i did need, ask or want you to do something for me and you didn’t…

i believed you loved me anyway.