if i could just know what was going on in your life, maybe i could move on?

but finding out is too risky because it would put me closer to u than i have been in a long time.

afraid of being pulled into your vortex again, unable to resist.

i loved u so much i let go of everything else.

when the whirling stopped, i wasn’t sure i could ever return to me, before u.  i wasn’t sure i wanted to.

alone and confused, i searched for someone, anyone to give me a reason that made sense.

but there is no one but me to understand why i allowed your irresistible force to change my life forever.

i want the whirling to stop.  stop.  please stop.